I feel like we're drifting apart.. it makes me sad :/
I don't see him in the mornings - he could never make it on time anymore so he just goes to class. But of course I wouldn't know until it was too late - the bell would ring and then I MIGHT get a text saying Hey I'm late. -.- Yeah, obviously! I get to school at 7, and class starts at 730. That's a half hour of me waiting in the hallway, trying to make myself look busy. After two weeks of that, I just couldn't help but feel heartbroken every time the bell would ring to go to class and I'm still there,
....
waiting.
I drew the line when on the last day when I waited for him, a classmate from my first period saw that I was upset and he stayed with me - I said he didn't have to, but he said he felt bad.
He PITIED me.
I was like....
Ouch.
This is the last straw.
I was like....
Ouch.
This is the last straw.
So I told him to just forget the mornings and that I'll start going up to Alethia's room again.
I know he doesn't do it on purpose, but like.. I just feel like we're drifting and he's just letting me go. Like he's not making any effort to keep me? I invite him out but he always has plans, when I text him he has homework - not his fault,
but don't IGNORE me ://
I can't help but be haunted by the story Rachel once told me - about her and her "best guy friend" and how she thinks that it'll happen to me.
And I can't help but think that she's right.
